It’s my fault, God! – by Janet Page

I hung up the phone in shock.

My younger son, Zac, had just been suspended from school. I couldn’t believe it.

How could my son do such a thing? He knew better. We had taught him not to do things like that. Why?

I knelt down and asked God why Zac had done this.

Don’t ask God that question if you don’t want to know! As I read my Bible, God showed me that it was my fault. God impressed me that a certain behavior my son had seen in my life through the years had made him think it was OK to do what he did.

I was devastated. I repented, confessed my sin, and thanked God for forgiveness.

I am so grateful that God’s Word says, “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9, NKJV).

I’m sure my son expected a scolding when he arrived home. Instead, I shared with him what God had shown me.

“Zac”, I said, “I have confessed it as sin, and I know God forgives me, but will you forgive me for being a bad example to you?”

I will never forget the look on his face or the tears in his eyes. That day I saw my rebellious young teenager soften before my eyes.

Zac is all grown up now. He is a pastor who is very in love with Jesus. He is passionate about seeing souls won to God’s kingdom.

There is much more to his story and how God led me, as his mom, to change my behavior. But one thing I know without a doubt: If we will spend quality time with God, reading His Word, asking Him to lead, and listening to Him, Jesus will guide us in our family relationships.

So many times God has impressed me while I am reading the Bible to do something or stop doing something. I’ve not always wanted to hear it and have sometimes refused to do it. How I regret those times! Looking back, I’m so thankful that this time I listened and obeyed.

Humbling ourselves and admitting our mistakes to others, whether family or anyone else, is eternally priceless. Over the years I have learned that all powerful prayer begins with a teachable spirit.

Janet Page, General Conference prayer ministries coordinator

NOTE: In case you missed last week’s Prayer Focus & Note from Erton Köhler, President, South America Division, you can view those by clicking HERE! We also have one new additional request for this upcoming week.

Practical Application: 

When things go wrong with loved ones, especially our children, it’s easy to cast blame on them, and to be harsh and judgmental. But what if, as a parent, we did just as Janet did, and asked God to show us where we have gone wrong in our own life and example, and how to make that right to our children. Even if the damage was done years ago, a few sincere words of love and apology could go a long ways towards mending broken bridges and helping someone turn and walk a new direction. Whatever the case, when problems arise, rather than reacting from our own feelings, anger or frustration, let’s learn to spend extra time in prayer and act based on God’s word, His love and His Spirit. 

Dear Heavenly Father, When things go wrong, it’s so easy to point the finger and be harsh and critical. And indeed there is a time to reprove. But please teach us how to love and act based on Your word, rather than reacting in anger. Teach us how to walk a higher road as parents and truly love as you love and forgive as you forgive, and try to do the best to make sure there is nothing between us and you, or us and our loved ones. It’s not easy, especially with family, but this is where we need your grace the most: In our home and in our hearts. Thank You for hearing and answering this prayer. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Promise to claim: Eph. 4:32