I am a psychologist. By the very nature of my job my life is governed by the rules and ethics of confidentiality.
I am consistently aware of my commitment to preserve and protect, first; the dignity of those who I serve, and second; the line of separation between my personal life and my profession.
I am also West Indian. We are socialized to guard how we share personal details. So, when asked to share about the Lord’s workings in my personal life for this 100 days of prayer, I felt fear as I suddenly realized that I would be required to self disclose, unmask, and become vulnerable in front of thousands. To be honest, I wanted to run away.
Then it suddenly dawned on me that perhaps the Lord was planning to free me of one of the things that professionals such as myself are frequently plagued with — pride! I have become so comfortable with my role as one who offers healing to others that I now have difficulty acknowledging to the world that I am human, and I need grace and healing myself as well.
As I began to write this testimony, I also realized that I was going to have to acknowledge my times of brokenness, and possibly share about the times when, even though I grew up in the church, I may have lost hope and focus in my Christian journey. I would have to unveil to others about the occasions when I was confused and angry with God. I would have to admit that I don’t always have it all together, and that I am still just a little girl searching for the guidance and protection from her all wise Father, Shepherd and Lord.
But then the Lord whispered in my ear, “Shanter, how can I use you effectively if you are unable to share with others the testimony of my work in your life. Everyone knows that you are a Christian. Everyone knows that you grew up in church, but my commandment is now for you to share with the world how you overcame the attacks of the enemy by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of [your] testimony. I need for you to come to the place where you love not your life [even] unto the death” (Rev. 12:11).
I thank God for awakening me today, to the reminder that I am still just like any one of His other children, and despite all my struggles and my spiritual challenges one thing is always clear; I earnestly long for a closer walk with God. I long to step aside from the rush and busyness of life to sit at the feet of my Lord. In fact, I long for the presence of God more than life itself. And I want to be used by Him in whatever way He deems best. So today, I will follow His call as I begin my journey of unmasking and sharing how He’s worked in my life, for He is a great God.
Heart Prayer Challenge:
Loving Father, our Lord and King, as busy professionals we choose to accept Your call today to come in to Your presence unmasked and disrobed from our worldly image of success. We surrender our every accomplishment that the world has given us into Your hands. Please accept our hearts. Pour Your Holy Spirit upon us and give us genuine opportunities to share your love with others. Over these 100 days of prayer, we commit to taking a moment to pause in the middle of our busy days to reconnect with You in Jesus’ as we lift up the needs of our church. May you be glorified. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
By Shanter Alexander
(Shanter, a native of St. Lucia, an island in the West Indies, is a licensed psychologist who currently lives in Berrien Springs Michigan. She enjoys traveling, cooking, reading and is passionate about supporting children with special needs. Shanter is also an anointed speaker/presenter and a woman of prayer. Her life is a testimony of God’s faithfulness.)