“I know Whom I have believed,” were among the last words spoken by Ellen G. White a few days before her death. I thank God that I now can say the same. However, it wasn’t always this way.
I grew up Catholic and often struggled making sense of the things that I was told in catechism class on Sundays. God was not a personal friend but a distant and aloof Being somewhere out there in space.
When I questioned what I was learning, I was told that if I was a “good Catholic girl” I would not question but just believe. So I continued doing what I was instructed. Week after week and year after year I attended mass, took part in confession and penance, and just did my best to be a good girl.
That is … until one day my dad died suddenly. I was seventeen. Devastated and angry, I ran from God and anything of a spiritual nature and turned to the wild life. But that was not the end, for God had a plan for me.
“For I know the thoughts I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart” (Jeremiah 29:11-13).
Finally after years of trying to fill the void in my heart with things of the world, God touched my heart and drew me to Himself via the Bible studies of a Seventh-day Adventist friend.
As I studied and learned about Jesus, the 10 Commandments and the story of the great controversy, I was moved beyond words. I knew I had found what would fill the void in my life and heart. It was not just a theory or a set of rules I must follow, but a Person! It was a personal relationship with the King of the Universe, Jesus Christ.
Of course, it was a sacrifice to follow Jesus and the truths I learned. My Catholic family did not understand, and often harshly criticized the new lifestyle and worship choices I made. But God gave me peace through His Word, and when I cried out to Him, He always listened to my meager cries.
Today, my mother, still a devout Catholic, wishes me a “Happy Sabbath” and respects my walk with God. She sees the peace that I have, even in the storms of life. God’s words ring true. He has a great hope for all of us. We simply have to seek His face with all our hearts. When we do, we will find Him!
Heart Prayer Challenge
Dear Heavenly Father, Some of us have been raised in the Seventh-day Adventist faith, but some of us have only known you for a few years. However, all of us need a deeper walk with you. Please fill us with more of your Spirit. Please teach us how to pray and how to truly seek your face today. Please pour out the promised Latter Rain upon our church that through your power we can reach the millions around the world that still have no idea of who a personal God is. Thank you for hearing this prayer. Amen!
By Kat Taylor
(Kat, also known as Karen Ann, works full-time for a government agency in Kansas, but her real heart and passion is in ministry. Kat is a people watcher, animal lover, nature enthusiast, and is praying about how she can get more involved in Christ-centered missions. She is active in church, loves prayer, and is also a member of the 100 Days of Prayer leadership team for the GC San Antonio Session.)